snow!!

so, we have had snow flurries twice this week - which is unusual for this warm Eastern NC climate, even more unusual that it happened before Thanksgiving!! Tuesday, the snow happened while I was at work, so I wasn't with Justin when it snowed. It wasn't that much anyway, but enough to make you giggly. :) But when we opened the door this morning, there was a good bit of snow falling. I don't mean a blizzard or anything, but more than what we're used to! Justin walked out really slow to the car and looked like he was examining this white stuff falling from the sky. Then he said, "Mommy - It got on you!!". lol!! Then he talked about it getting on the car and the school buses the whole way to daycare this morning. He wasn't sure he liked it, but he was surely interested in it. Unfortunately, I got no pictures, b/c we were trying to rush off to work and daycare. But maybe next time.

almost caught....

Since I have been going to bed super early, there's been very little quality time with the hubby lately. Any quality time lately has been in the mornings and usually on the weekend. As was the case on Saturday. But lo and behold, as we are wrapping things up, we hear the sound of the doorknob hitting the wall as our precious boy has woken up, slams open the bedroom door, and comes marching in to our room. His timing could've been worse tho - 5 seconds earlier and he'd have gotten a real show.

exhausted

I have been so exhausted the last few weeks. Going to bed at 8:30 and sleeping until the boy gets up. Housework has been suffering as I do the minimum to get by, and poor hubby, he tries to help. He's been doing most of the cooking lately. And the past few days, everything I do makes me nauseas, not actually getting sick, but feeling like I'd have to run for the bathroom at any moment. So basically, I've been worthless around the house. And to top it off, we have some major financial stress going on that has me super depressed b/c I don't know if I can fix it or how to fix it. It's just one thing after another. I just don't seem to be on top of things lately and that kills me. Oh well, we all get through it some how right?

at my whit's end

Justin has always slept through the night very well ever since he started daycare at 6 weeks old. Sure, there's been times here and there that he's woken up (ear infections, teething), but generally, a good sleeper. Well for about the past month or so, he's been waking up in the middle of the night and I have no explanation of it. He's also had mommy-itis and it's getting worse. Now, the waking in the night has progressed from crying to ear-piercing screams. All the while saying "I want mommy". Usually I pick him up and hold him for a few mins and then lay him back down, to which he still cries, but usually falls back asleep after 5-10 mins.

Last night, I decided to skip the holding him part and just let him cry him self back to sleep. But the screaming just got louder and became more like "shrieking". So, I go in to his room, tell him to lie down while mommy sits by his bed. He laid back down, but he just laid there. he wouldn't drift off to slip, he'd just lay there quietly. So, I grabbed one of his blankets and a stuffed animal (to use as a pillow) and also "laid down" on the floor. An hour and a half later, I woke up and was sure he was asleep, so I get up to go back to my own bed. Well, he immediately starts crying. I comfort him and tell him to go back to sleep and that mommy is going to go nite-nite in her own bed. I laid back down in my bed and he is still screaming. So I go back in his room, and he's sitting up just boo-hooing. I go grab my pillow and a real blanket and laid down on his floor. He was fine. I fell asleep for about an hour. This time, he's really asleep, so I get up and go lay in bed.

I'm not in bed 10 mins when he starts shrieking again!!!! You have got to be kidding me. Why can't he sleep on his own anymore?? I take my pillow back in there and lay on the floor. I spent the rest of the night in there. Slept like crap!! I finally get up at 6:30 to use the bathroom and to get ready for work. Well guess who wakes up like 2 mins later and starts crying b/c mommy is out of sight??? He doesn't even want me to take a shower. He didn't want daddy to hold him while I took a shower or got him a juice cup or anything. So we head into the kitchen to get a cup. I set him down and take 2 steps to go to the fridge, and he starts crying and following me!! Come on! I manage to get him a cup. I take him back into the bedroom and turn on the Disney Channel to hopefully occupy him while I take a shower. He soon got over it, but he still didn't like it if I was out of his sight.

I don't think he's sick, I don't think he's having night terrors (after doing a little research, I discovered that kids are usually "asleep" during night terrors and he most definitely was awake.), I'm not sure of whether or not he's having nightmares or what. He has talked about a "car getting him" over the past couple of weeks. Oh, and when he cries a lot like that in the night he coughs to the point where it sounds like he's gagging and that scares the crap out of me. And I don't know if it's drool or sweat, but when he has these fits, he wakes up with this smell about him. Since he's had ear problems in the past, I checked last night after bathtime to see if it was his ears, and I don't think it is. So I think it's all the drool and/or sweat that gets worked up and out of him during these fits in the middle of the night.

Anyone have any ideas?? I don't know what to do anymore. I just hate it that he has such severe mommy-itis and that he doesn't sleep well anymore. I think I'm going to call the doctor's office this morning to see if I can talk to someone and get a professional's opinion. I'm at my whit's end here....

hormones

So after a little husband-wife time last night, I started crying. Why? Hormones - but I'll explain what I was going through.

It seems like no matter what I do, my husband is always laughing at me. We have a fun, joking relationship so it's normal to us. But I swear like it seems like he's been laughing at me even more lately. For instance, when I tried to gargle hot-salt water for my sore throat yesterday morning, my gag reflex really kicked in and I started heaving over the kitchen sink. Of Course the boy is up under me going "Mommy, you ok?" as I push him away. Hubby comes in the kitchen asking if I'm okay, and I tell him that trying to gargle really made my gag reflex kick in. He starts laughing. I'm sure he was laughing at how I said it or just at what I said. But I said "What is so funny about that?" It just rubbed me the wrong way ya know? So he stopped laughing.

Last night, after our "time" together, he starts laughing at me again. I again asked what was so darn funny. He said "You just looked so comfortable". Now he was being sarcastic b/c the position we were in was not the most comfortable, but it got the job done, ya know? So as I get up to go to the bathroom, i just start crying. I kept it to myself b/c I knew it wasn't his fault, but I just felt like I couldn't do anything at all without my husband laughing at me and making me feel like a fool.

I dried my tears really quickly b/c I knew it was just the hormones making me crazy. I've done a bit of crying in the past month or so - all thanks to hormones.

shoes

I hate shoes. I know that's a bold statement coming from a female, but I do. I would love shoes, if I didn't have such huge feet. I used to wear a size 10, but now they're too small. I seem to only find size 11's, but they're too big. That means I need a size 10.5 - but trying to find those is like trying to find a needle in a haystack!! When I do find a pair, they're usually at an outrageous price! When I do by chance find some that I can afford and are decent enough that I can wear to work I get them. But would you like to guess how long they last? Usually not long at all, maybe 3-4 months tops. I have discovered why (I think). It always seems that my right shoe always breaks or tears apart soon after. Apparently I can't walk correctly. I'm either out of balance when I walk or I walk heavy on my right side or something. Whatever it is, I always am rougher on my right shoe than my left shoe.

So after all, I just hate going shoe shopping b/c it's so difficult to find a pair that fit me, I can afford, and are durable enough to last.

in case you didn't know...

I can't keep my mouth shut. This is so super early, but whatever!